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talangka mentality [Feb. 11th, 2011|02:28 am]
i think i won't live to see the day when the philippines is first world already.

the problem is not wealth and money. the problem is our mentality.
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Learn [Jan. 3rd, 2011|07:35 pm]
I will never forget. I have learned. Learn to read the contract more closely.
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An Organization's Culture is Everything [Dec. 31st, 2010|02:47 am]
I was reading this interview of Marissa Mayer in Newsweek and she said that one of the things that the google founders wanted for their company was diversity, and that was the reason why they hire more women than an average web, IT company. The reason for this is that diversity increases the creativity or the innovativeness of a company for obvious reasons.

because of this article that i read, i was reminded of this one morning when I went for breakfast at Mcdo Greenbelt. There was this 2 old americans who were discussing something, a chart, an organizational chart. they were arguing about how and why they were supposed to structure their organizational chart like this and like that. it is only now that i was able to realize the importance of what they were doing.

I suppose they are investors who are trying to start a company in the philippines during that time. and they were talking about the organizational structure of their company. connecting what marissa said, it was revealed to me that an organization's structure and composition defines a company's culture and ability to create and produce something significant and important. This, in turn, will define the success of a company. That is why I believe that it is everything.

And what better time to start building a culture but in a time when you're only starting the company. The vision of these 2 americans, they are applying in their organization's structure. This is also the main reason why we should not hire just because we need the slot to be filled, but also because we need to look for the right person to fill the spot, someone who is fit for the company's culture.

a lot of ideaaas! so little time to write about all of them.

anyways, goodnight!
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(no subject) [Nov. 29th, 2010|01:48 am]
I feel so empty already. I don't want to lose hope.

I need to find that strength to give that, and give it completely. Must not give pressure. Give it fully.

Fear will always be there, but I need to focus on the positive, that it will be kept. another chance. I will keep and secure. My life. I know I have defined it.

Focus on family this season, I guess that's what i'll do. Focus on work? yes. This will be my venue to prepare myself, to be ready if another chance is given. I wanna change, I want to be better. I want this to work, if I am given another chance.
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(no subject) [Nov. 28th, 2010|12:07 pm]
i now see the reason why it is always better to have one half of the family taking care of the children.

i've always wondered why some people are more complete in their conviction in their lives than i am. and what i have noticed is that most of these people whom i felt were more complete was raised by their parents. i was raised mostly by our household maid, tita mely. my parents would always be out when i was growing up particularly because it was the peak of their careers and their job needed more time away from their families. some sacrifices needed to be made so that their children can have better opportunities in life. i guess this was also particularly true with my brother. We almost always had the same experiences.

i've always strived to be that complete person so that i can give myself completely to my special other.

I now see why the OFW phenomena is destroying families, destroying the values of the young and creating a lost generation of young filipinos. i was lucky to have my parents work in the same country tho. i'm just thinking, paano pa yung ibang kids na OFW pareho yung parents.

I now see the importance of the huge tax incentives/cuts in first world countries when you have a child who is a minor. This gives space for one of the parents to take less taxing jobs. One half who can take care of the children and raise them properly, give more time to the family. I now see the importance of having laws protect your career. some countries would have laws that inhibit companies for taking "a vacation/break" from work negatively. This is because it is always better to have 'raising' of the children be rotating between the parents. the traditional role of the wife is not applicable anymore in this modern age. the wife too has career goals and dreams for herself that she wants to satisfy. and this means that the man must give way by taking the turn raising the children.

I want that to happen for myself in the future. I would want that only one parent works so that the other can give time to the children.
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(no subject) [Sep. 15th, 2010|12:35 am]
sometimes i just want to be that person who can always be there.

these past 2 weeks, i feel so powerless. i could not even be there for myself, at the very least. I just wanna be there for the people i love. it feels like my life force is constantly being sucked by work, study and more work. I wanna lighten up. I want to be able to explore new things with her. I want to be able to just readily let go of work when i'm with the person i love most.

I feel that i need to do more. I guess i just need to grow up a little bit more each day learning how to be that person who would consistently bring a big smile to the people i love.

i want to read more, talk more, learn new things, learn new jokes, tell more stories.. be more than just my 8-5 work and 8-11 studying. I want to have my happy go lucky mode 11-12 and 6-8.

well that just means less sleep for me... there's always brewed coffee and saturdays naman eh :)
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i miss college [Jun. 29th, 2010|01:33 am]
life's so different after college. everything just seems so routine and that you'll just always be looking forward to fridays and saturdays and sundays and weekday dinners (with my loved ones at home or with my girlfriend). its like you would always want the days to pass by so that its friday again. its sad to know because you feel that a big part of you, monday to thursday, is taken away. its like your life force is sucked and you can only take what's left, what they allow you to have. whoever 'they' might be. well, that's a bit too much to say, but i guess you know what i mean by that. i just wanna feel mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays and thursdays again.

i feel like i'm losing myself everytime i go to work. i go into that strict environment which allows little expression of myself. nowadays, its such a luxury to be able to express yourself. i've always taken that for granted back in college. on the other hand, thank god there's livejournal.

i miss the days when i would just look forward in hearing what my prof has to say about life, about the beauty and elegance of an equation, about the importance of doing from saying. doing as our philosophy teachers would say it.... well, i realize that the doing that they teach is overrated. i'm at least thankful to have known that its what we should strive to be. to do, to be and not be like the hypocrites that nietzsche describes. on the contrary, we're fundamentally free so there's no reason for me to be ranting like this.

well, i guess, the bottomline is that i miss ateneo.

there's a lot of things that this school has given me that i cherish.. ASEC, mountaineering, xanland, dota, condo life, values, knowledge, failing, learning, growing, friends, a heartbreak, falling back again, finding love again, learning to love completely again. the place taught me how to live. the place taught me how to become more human.

and as i would always say to marshy, there's so much happiness associated with that place that whenever i pass by katipunan, for whatever reason, all my problems seem so easy, everything feels so light and my heart just feels happy.
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i wanna grow up [Jun. 19th, 2010|11:10 pm]
i keep on fending the people important to me because of my being a control freak.

i am having a hard time realizing and understanding the fact that each and everyone has his or her own mind and that we have no control over their decisions. at the end of the day, we should respect their decisions no matter what. and also, as opposed to some people might say, advice is overrated. you're better off not giving any advice, or accepting any advice. let the person be him/herself.

i just wanna reflect on the roots of these feelings that come whenever someone important to me does not meet my expectations. this is usually the source of my anger, which i have a hard time controlling. first of all, i should stop expecting. expectations are the source of all anger. when something we expect does not happen, we are disappointed and are angered by it. why do we expect in the first place? is it okay to expect from someone you love? i believe there are things that is okay to expect from a partner, like time, respect for his or her space, things that can be considered to be a foundation in the relationship. on the other hand, small, petty things should not, never be expected. it should just be let go easily.

but why the fuck could i not let go of small things easily?!?!?! i've been trying for almost 6 years trying to outgrow myself and learn to let go of small things easily. its one of my emotional incapacities. i have learned to lessen it, but not significantly.

why does it have to be so hard to outgrow from? i wish i could outgrow it. i want to outgrow it fast.

haay.. ang hirap. i wish i had more EQ. low EQ kasi eh. langya.
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sad and disappointed [Nov. 19th, 2009|12:28 am]
its sad to know that we're just so deprived.

what's happening to our country?

why are we so poor?

why is it soo hard to follow our dreams?

why is it soo hard to create wealth for ourselves? to find opportunities for ourselves..
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Happy ako.. [Apr. 30th, 2009|12:23 am]
I'm happy because I know i did the right thing. I'm not the only person in her life. She has other roles to fulfill and the most important of those right now is her role as a daughter. I need to respect that and thus, I need to make it easy for her to fulfill that role to her parents. :-)
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